I’ve been writing stuff from my previous post-mostly job related. On, how i dislike everything  about it and the people around me especially my counterparts, and guess what? I committed the same dilemma again..yes! again!

Lately, i applied for a job here in Cebu, and i got accepted.During my final interview with the CEO my question was this:How do you see yourself 5 years from now? well, we all know for a fact that this question is always present when you get into an interview.Lucky for me because I’ve been preparing for this kind of question and it’s been part of  my system already. In short, i had memorized it many times…heheh… and i believe that i answered he’s question well.

The job wasn’t bad at all,in fact they offered a basic salary of 11,000 and a  fix allowance of 11,000 plus the commission plus the company car!.nah.sounds exciting!..but, i wasn’t happy. not at all…so blame it to me..i didn’t find the happiness that I’ve been looking for a job. i was kinda upset about everything. ok, call me whatever you want. but i can’t swallow it.they tried to change me,everything about me, my looks,the way i talk…everything..
at first i took it positively because it can help me on the other side.

There was a time that i was not feeling okay, i had an lbm and i forgot to tell my manager who used to be a doctor,i just informed my senior about my absence and by the time she knew it, she got mad at me and she doesn’t believe my reason, she told me that she’s a doctor and she knows it if im telling the truth or not..And i cried..upset..hurt…which made me decide to gave up my job.it may sound silly that i gave up just like that. but its a question of dignity..trust..‘coz she doesn’t believe in me….individuality..may be?…and  what about me?do i have the right to reason out?do i have the right to be sick and stay home?

i must admit that i also had my own shortcomings, i wasn’t a perfect employee i was late thrice during my stay in that company, i flunked in the exams during the training days,but it is just so hard to work with people who do not trust you…. there might be disappointments, feelings hurt when i moved out ..

….and let’s just put it this way,after all, there will always be lesson to that..and its about time to put into practice.